Tuesday, November 3, 2009

"babygirl"



saosin, god i love it.


anthony green...youre voice is amazing
nor could you be anymore adorable.





anyways today was very, very boring.


didnt do much, just school and then home.


ive had this raging headache all day though,


i took a nap and it still wont go away.


ugh whatever it better be gone by the morning.

and to be honest...i couldnt be anymore excited to see you...

"Only once in your life, I truly believe, you find someone who can completely turn your world around. You tell them things that you’ve never shared with another soul and they absorb everything you say and actually want to hear more. You share hopes for the future, dreams that will never come true, goals that were never achieved and the many disappointments life has thrown at you. When something wonderful happens, you can’t wait to tell them about it, knowing they will share in your excitement. They are not embarrassed to cry with you when you are hurting or laugh with you when you make a fool of yourself. Never do they hurt your feelings or make you feel like you are not good enough, but rather they build you up and show you the things about yourself that make you special and even beautiful. There is never any pressure, jealousy or competition but only a quiet calmness when they are around. You can be yourself and not worry about what they will think of you because they love you for who you are. The things that seem insignificant to most people such as a note, song or walk become invaluable treasures kept safe in your heart to cherish forever. Memories of your childhood come back and are so clear and vivid it’s like being young again. Colours seem brighter and more brilliant. Laughter seems part of daily life where before it was infrequent or didn’t exist at all. A phone call or two during the day helps to get you through a long day’s work and always brings a smile to your face. In their presence, there’s no need for continuous conversation, but you find you’re quite content in just having them nearby. Things that never interested you before become fascinating because you know they are important to this person who is so special to you. You think of this person on every occasion and in everything you do. Simple things bring them to mind like a pale blue sky, gentle wind or even a storm cloud on the horizon. You open your heart knowing that there’s a chance it may be broken one day and in opening your heart, you experience a love and joy that you never dreamed possible. You find that being vulnerable is the only way to allow your heart to feel true pleasure that’s so real it scares you. You find strength in knowing you have a true friend and possibly a soul mate who will remain loyal to the end. Life seems completely different, exciting and worthwhile. Your only hope and security is in knowing that they are a part of your life." - Bob Marley

Thursday, October 22, 2009

no one knows anything about me, with my health, work, family, and so much more. i feel like all youre concerned about is you...but for one second i would love for you to take a step back and try and think about me, you say all these things that you need me to do for you to make you happy, yeah well what about me. you dont try at all. ive noticed that youre a really selfish person and just criticize me on what i need to do, when itd be great for the both of us if you tried half as much as you wanted me to. i really want to try i do but you give me no motivation, every time i do i feel rejected and i hate that feeling. i know things are going well for you and they always will, i dont want to make anything harder for you.

Wednesday, October 14, 2009

vulnerability

i feel so stupid. i feel as if i try and try and yet i still get no where. i also feel like im being hidden. you never seem to have me anywhere. i try my hardest i really do, im just scared. but im trying to be strong, because i want you in my life.

...i know why im waiting.

Tuesday, October 13, 2009

asdfghjk

today was so tiring
school felt as if it was for forever today
well anyways done with haleys traffic school
and i got to see micaela before she leaves!
i cant sleep :/ the storm is making it so scary
i want to cuddle...

Monday, October 12, 2009

today


was a very boring day

didnt do much but get my hair done.

ive wanted it this way for almost a year

and now i got it :)

tomorrow will be even more boring though...

ugh i gotta do traffic school for a friend

but its ok, shes paying me 50 bucks.

i still have yet to pick up my first check

so i think ill do that tomorrow on my way home from school.

my kittens gettin bigggg, love him.


mk nighttt. (pic...old hair)

Friday, October 2, 2009

i couldnt love it anymore

i couldnt love the thought of this any more. i think its so fucking you, kinda like you. haha and by the way...i do have balls ;)

Tuesday, September 22, 2009

fresh

today was the first day of school
and boy am i tired ughhh.
i hate having to wake up so early
and then having to just be in traffic
but so far all my teachers are great
im excited for my dance class
and im still debating on which clubs i want
hmm....

well tomorrow will be a slightly easier day i hope
going in for an interview at valley fair :)
and then i need to work on a project.
well super tired, so im going to get offline
and read my amazing and very addicting book.

night n' sweet dreamin <3